Moving Day
Jim stepped a boot-clad foot up into the cab of his yellow Peterbuilt, grabbed the wheel and swung into the seat. He banged the door closed. Through the open doorway of my house I could see him in the rattling cab, fiddling with his tunes before he took off down the 10 to LA. His moving crew, some local guys from the street corner in downtown Las Cruces, had already headed to the bar for a beer and a burrito. As I turned to go back into the house, he blasted his horn, and caught me with a wink and a smile. I waved one arm, and with the other, I pulled the collar of my blouse close around my neck.
The house inside was dark and considerably cooler than the desert heat in the front yard. I liked it that way. The sun had always seemed too bright, the sky too blue, the landscape too bare and brown. A puff of air stirred the dust on the tile floor as I closed the door. I walked over to the patio doors, my flip-flops snapping and echoing in the empty room. A band of smudges at dog nose height and a handprint on the glass door were all that was left to remind me of what I was leaving behind. I glanced out and saw that I’d forgotten to pack the pottery planter I’d bought on some day trip to Juarez. Damn. To beat the deadly boredom of my life here, I’d taken to driving my little station wagon across the border illegally without insurance. It seemed a real adventure, with the thrilling possibility of getting kidnapped or robbed and stabbed.
I walked into the kitchen to check the cupboards one last time. Black marks against the wall marked the positions of our chair backs, and the scratch on the counter brought back with startling clarity images of the broken glass and spilled tequila. The space the refrigerator occupied was empty, its snake of a icemaker hose dangling from the wall, a water drop waiting to fall from its mouth the minute I turned away. One by one I pulled open the drawers and doors. The only thing I found, aside from the usual crumbs in the corners, was a stray Corona bottle cap that I stuck in my pocket.
I put the house keys and garage door opener on the counter, locked the door from the inside and slid out into the heat. My car had been sitting on the street for hours, boxes stacked and crammed so high I’d probably get a ticket. Heat waves radiated upward from the metal: I was always shocked that the tires didn’t just melt into the asphalt. It was too hot to touch the door handle so I wrapped a towel around my hand, opened both doors and gingerly sat on the front seat. A chug and a shudder and the old station wagon started up. The air conditioning was shot, but the fan worked. I rolled the windows down and drove away. I didn’t look back.
The house inside was dark and considerably cooler than the desert heat in the front yard. I liked it that way. The sun had always seemed too bright, the sky too blue, the landscape too bare and brown. A puff of air stirred the dust on the tile floor as I closed the door. I walked over to the patio doors, my flip-flops snapping and echoing in the empty room. A band of smudges at dog nose height and a handprint on the glass door were all that was left to remind me of what I was leaving behind. I glanced out and saw that I’d forgotten to pack the pottery planter I’d bought on some day trip to Juarez. Damn. To beat the deadly boredom of my life here, I’d taken to driving my little station wagon across the border illegally without insurance. It seemed a real adventure, with the thrilling possibility of getting kidnapped or robbed and stabbed.
I walked into the kitchen to check the cupboards one last time. Black marks against the wall marked the positions of our chair backs, and the scratch on the counter brought back with startling clarity images of the broken glass and spilled tequila. The space the refrigerator occupied was empty, its snake of a icemaker hose dangling from the wall, a water drop waiting to fall from its mouth the minute I turned away. One by one I pulled open the drawers and doors. The only thing I found, aside from the usual crumbs in the corners, was a stray Corona bottle cap that I stuck in my pocket.
I put the house keys and garage door opener on the counter, locked the door from the inside and slid out into the heat. My car had been sitting on the street for hours, boxes stacked and crammed so high I’d probably get a ticket. Heat waves radiated upward from the metal: I was always shocked that the tires didn’t just melt into the asphalt. It was too hot to touch the door handle so I wrapped a towel around my hand, opened both doors and gingerly sat on the front seat. A chug and a shudder and the old station wagon started up. The air conditioning was shot, but the fan worked. I rolled the windows down and drove away. I didn’t look back.